sometimes closing a chapter
doesnt mean you can open one up again

being alone on Valentines day
tolerable

being heartbroken on Valentines day
unbearable

hey umm fuck you

Would someone please call a surgeon
who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
that you're deserting for better company
I can't accept that it's over
and I will block the door
like a goalie tending the net
in the third quarter
of a tied game rivalry
so just say how to make it right
and I swear I'll do my best to comply

its over

Screaming on the top of your lungs on the curb before vo tech saves lifes i swear after that i was calmer than i had been for awhile though it didnt last that long we had ciggarettes to make that all better but yet the shows are wonderful im just upset well everyones upset its really fucked up and i cant sleep and nothings really calming me down its not like im hyper its just im really anxious for this to be over im really anxious to get back to a point where im not crying myself to sleep every night and when the chili peppers and the pixies could calm me down and i dont cry every time i hear that one song by streetlight manifesto i wish things could get back to semi normal i wish i wasnt so alone

i need to scream more

ehh what a weekend i really didnt do much the funeral went well acctually it was going to happen and everyone was just kind of relieved so yea thats all going to be ok i just dont like funerals i no that no one does but ive just been to so many lately

saturday was acctually interesting i didnt feel like making lunch so i decided it would be a good idea to get chinese food so i call up the place and i order it and get on my bike since no one was home well it was icy as hell and i only crashed once and well it was a tad painfull but the food was good so whatever and then i went to work which is amazing i could write a list of 100 reasons of why my job is cooler than yours and ive only been there 3 weeks

today i made a skirt its preatty ill probally wear it tommorw and on wednesday for vo tech people not sure yet though

in other news i listened to the pixies cd i have a total of 19 times this weekend eeep

Lets make it known that jake myer owns my socks

LessThenJake995: well rnt u hip
x wangchung2nite: i'm so hip you cant see past my pelvis
LessThenJake995: damn
LessThenJake995: I'm so hip old people use me to replace their broken hips
x wangchung2nite: that was lame
LessThenJake995: i know thats why it was awesome
x wangchung2nite: sure
LessThenJake995: guess you just wouldnt understand your not punk enough
x wangchung2nite: o yea im totally not punk enough
LessThenJake995: Im so punk I have 8 causlties shirts and i live in the dumpster behind hot topic
x wangchung2nite: im so punk i have 3 germs shirts 6 ramones shirts and a clash skirt plus on most days i cant afford anything because im just that punk i just wear my studded belt which was passed down by from my o so punk great grandfather and i live in teh celing above hot topic
LessThenJake995: i have a pair of pants made completly of safety pins
LessThenJake995: i win peace